these last few days have been every parents nightmare. there are no words. none. the grief is devastating. everywhere you look there is someone with a heavy, heavy heart. why? why such a young and beautiful girl with such a bright future ahead of her? we expect to help a friend through the loss of their parents but NEVER through the loss of their child. i feel guilty for carrying on with the normal life ‘stuff’. i feel guilty for laughing with {or at} my bois. i wish I could make it all ok for everyone, make the pain and despair go away.

the stars the other night. they were something else. so beautiful and peaceful. and maybe more so because there was a bright, new shining star with them. cysga’n dawel bach, cysga’n dawel. xxx